Life goes on, this is what I will write about today,
It’s a feeling that everyone experiences, time just evaporating away,
Distance at its greatest peaks, longitude too whatever this means or so to speak,…
Life was before you or so so, and life will be after you, so as I was told,
Years will again go by, and maybe still the same memories I will hold,
Replaying like ptsd, scarring the brain popping up whenever on me,
But that’s fineeeeeeeee,
I never even wanted to really glow or shine,
I hate the attention anyway, im just on this earth with a role to play,
Each day passing, exhausted for nothing?!,
Or is it depression, which is a lack of something,
Or a loss, or a chronic array or simultaneous losses,
I never asked for this, who up there dictates, where are the bosses,
Tell them I am looking for you, tell them I have searched high and low,
And still empty handed and with nothing but heartache to show,
Do I bleed internally for no one to see, is anyone even actually bothered about me,
Or do write and wither for the people, while they listen and watch taking a sip tea,
It is that easy for anyone to overlook, to good or bad cast upon,
“Oh, look at her, all black, she was once a beautiful white swan”,
-Bloodily internally darkened, one final visit. Just remove the white.
Purity, birds chiming, wind whistling, now cast out of sight,
Hmmm, okay did you not know we change, its all life dependant,
This black swan never asked to be a constant defendant,
Sorrow, and hell of continuous pain , sometimes at the hands of others trauma,
then pleading, begging, wondering when all of this would be over,
Toying with the anchors and life lines of life,
My thoughts – ‘do I really need or want to be part of this bomb site’,
Glimmer here and there, hope just conveys through,
And then I learnt that life does go on, with or without it all and with or without you