For some reason I hesitated before I came downstairs,
The walls wore different, but I didn’t really seem to care,
I turned the corner, on the couch there you were sat,
Again hesitation, you had gone and I had accepted that,
But with a glow, and a smile I hadn’t seen for years
My face flooded and filled with the happiest tears,
I jumped on you and held you so close,
You embraced this and said, I promise you this time I won’t go,
For moments I remembered, it all flooded inward,
For a minute, there I was, feeling completely uninjured,
But the room began to shrink, sweats and then it got really hot,
I tossed and turned, opening my eyes and there – you were not,
My shodden heart sank to bottom where it had re-homed,
That’s the only place, in the dark where it feels known,
Since you left, the trauma and everything else happened,
I haven’t really felt much of the happy only the drench of being saddened,
Years of healing and understanding, trying to close the door,
But there like nothing had occurred, you were sat once more,
I forgot how I felt when you were here,
I guess loss dampens you, and then you adhere,
But for a moment in an altera universe there was happiness,
I will love you forever and I just wish I could tell you this